You've Got A Friend In Ni

[Jaden_Starchaser]

Jaden sighed, gathered his thoughts, and spoke, "You showed me trust by telling you your darkest secret. It's only fair that I tell you mine."

[Gar]

Ni frowned. "You aren't obliged to tell me anything, Martyr Boy," she assured him, concerned, "It was my choice to tell you, and I'm glad I did. I somehow feel closer to you now..." after a while she added, "I feel I can trust you. Nowadays I only trust people because Gaddy Daddy trusts them."

[Jaden_Starchaser]

Jaden smiled at her softly and said, "I feel the same way. That's why I feel I can trust you with this." He took a deep breath and dove right into it. "I shouldn't be here having this conversation with you right now. I shouldn't have gone to Asgard with you guys. After that incident where you all had to save me and Trysta I was given a psychological evaluation to see whether or not I was fit to continue on or be sent back to the academy for remediation."

[Gar]

"Remediation?!" Exclaimed Ni, "What the heck is that??" She furrowed her brows, touched his forehead and cheeks with her hands, then shrugged. "You seem fine to me. What did the shrink say?"

[Jaden_Starchaser]

Jaden couldn't help but laugh at her antics. "Remediation to see if I could stil function as a Jedi," he replied. "Officially I am able to function as an officer of the Republic. Demaya had him redact what he had said about me continuing as a Jedi." He paused, wet his lips with his tongue, and then continued. "I carry a great deal of guilt over the losses that have happened due to my actions. This guilt has caused me to have potential risk of falling to the Dark Side if given the right trigger. It was determined that I should attend sessions with a healer to help my recovery as well as mandatory group sessions with other troopers as prevention."

[Gar]

Ni squinted at these words. "That...doesn't sound like a lot if fun... mandatory group sessions? Really, they have those?" She scratched her head, "But if you need a healer, you have several right here!" She said optimistically. Then she remembered his previous words. "Um...what losses are you referring to?" Ni asked with a more serious tone, cocking her head to the side curiously.

[Jaden_Starchaser]

"A mental healer," Jaden elaborated. "Someone I'm supposed to speak to about this guilt until I am able to get over it I guess. As to the losses...people that have died because i couldn't save them. That were put into positions to die because of my actions. Friends and their family that didn't deserve to die."

[Gar]

After a silent moment of digesting these words, Ni asked softly, "Who were these people? How did they die?"

[Jaden_Starchaser]

Jaden's face went blank as he spoke in an emotionless voice, "Rey Typhon. Cause of death: turbolaser bolts into various parts of the body on Naboo. Rylan, Kalina, and Bran Hunno. Cause of death: crushed to death by a building collapse on Olivan. Anong Hunno. Cause of death: experimentation by Major Haze on Fray. Tod Klo. Cause of death: suicide led on by a mental breakdown caused from a Jedi Mind Trick." He looked deep into the Zeltron's eyes and continued, "All of these deaths have one thing in common. Me."

[Gar]

Ni appeared very confused, her brows furrowing slightly. "I don't understand..." she replied slowly as she tried to process what he had said, "Did you shoot the turbolaser? Did you push over the building? Did you conduct the experiments? Were you the one that used the Jedi mind trick? Because none of that sounds like something you would do. Although being able to move a building, I have to admit, would be pretty damn awesome." The Zeltron looked up at him quizzically.